Over it

So as I look at some of the pictures over the past year that have been taken of me I am disgusted. I am mad at myself. I have let my weight so out of control that now I want to cry when i look at myself. This is the roundest I have been from head to toe since I was pregnant with Dylan. I have been complaining about my weight for a long long time now and have been making my poor girlfriends listen to it. I am sorry girls.
I have come to that place where I am sick of being this way. So with a realistic goal in site I am gonna drop this weight one way or another and in a way I hope I can keep it off. I am not perfect and I know that I will mess up sometimes. But hey show me one person on that journey who hasn't had a bad day, week or month. I know that I will never ever be the size I was pre-kids but when I am getting out of breath walking up and down our stairs in our house that is enough.
So maybe if I am accountable here or to someone that wants to help me I can finally get down to a healthy weight because I am far from it now.
So I am asking please pray for me, I have got to get healthy again I don't want to be a stick but I don't wanna be ashamed of my pics.